A wrong move ; a wrong step.

thats my baby boy n me :)

2010-04-08T00:03:00.000-07:00

Hes my dearest.

iLu*

Malacca, Genting trip from Fri to Sun.

Sp freshmen Orientation starting on 13th to 14th :)

Poly, here I come. :)

Bursary merit award, goes straight into my pocket.

Invitation to apply for Mr Lee Kuan Yew Scholarship.

PRAY I WILL GET IT PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Dearest, thank you for walking this tough n rough road with me.

2010-03-08T03:18:00.000-08:00

I say this again.
IF U THINK SUCH COMMENTS OF IM A BITCH / SLUT / WHORE COULD BRING ME DOWN AND BEAT ME DOWN,
THEN IM HERE TO TELL YOU,
ITS OF NO USE AT ALL.

Nica baby. :)
Thank you.
iLu*

_____________________________________________________________________

Exams are just within these 4 days.
And Im done with my ITE life. ;)
Nothing great happened recently.
This sat, is a special occasion.
I wondered.
How are you celebrating it.
I guess hatred still stays.
Take care of urself.

2010-02-28T06:42:00.000-08:00

Long long time ago.
3 years ago.
I got to know a guy with sucha tall height that stunned me.
He long ago had heard my name.
Very 1st time seeing him is...
AMK K-BOX.
1st time nightlife,
Was Zouk.
When he stupidly mistaken my tattoo as DAMN.
He always said,
I showed him a different side of demure ladies.
I will always pull his collar whenever he says he wanna go grind other girls.
I will always create trouble for him to clear up in Phuture.

This guy.
Hold me on for 2years.
This guy always rmb the msg that i sent him when hes in malaysia with his friends.
The msg that says,
Dont eat too much seafood cos weather is bad in Malaysia.
The guy that ever edited a pic of ours by putting a lightning sign due to my voice and set it as his wallpaper in his N70.
This was the guy that gave me 2 years of his prime time to love me silently inexchange for 2 weeks time being tgt with me.

He left me twice.
Always appeared whenever I was feelin lost and empty.
2nd time he came back...
When i was at Kovan Hk cafe.
And i received his msg and hes at DragonFly.
We said that...
Nobody is supposed to leave each other alone.
This guy was e only guy that bicker with me like nobody business.
That was e guy that heard me cryin over that phone when I got caught for playin 181009 and IL.
That was e guy who picked me up when i was dyin soon.

This guy brought me Perlini silver dolphin necklace and asked me to b his gf on the eve of 09'CNY.
The guy that tgt with me ever encountered ghost experience at E2MAX.
The guy that told me hes super fetish towards girls who wear BEBE and MNG top.
The guy that I sang while hes on e phone.
The guy that ple always sees us s couples.
The guy that gave me memorable christmas eve, christmas and new year countdown.
The guy that I will go down PH with shorts and slippers just to catch a glimpse of him.
The guy that needs my consistent grumble regardin his diet.
The guy that I will always msg whenever i passed by Paya Lebar.
The guy that stayed so close so close to my heart.
The guy that have memories of EASY, LAST NIGHT and WOMANISER.
The guy that i used nothing but the most genuine heart ever.
The guy that sit ambulance with me 1st and last time.
The guy that drank 5 sec martell as a result of my brave front.
The guy that loves PEDRO this brand.
The guy that bought DOMANCHI button shirts jus cos i say the shop clothing for guys r nice.
The guy that I will never ever forget.
The guy of name,
Elson Toh WeiXiang.
The guy that left me 3rd time and I believed is the very last time already.
The guy that said he wants to move on.
This is e guy that i will always keep in my heart.
Always and always.

181009.
2 more weeks to your 24th bday.
I saw the tag u left.
I have nvr ask u for forgiveness.
I jus hope somehow i could do smth for u behind the screen.
I dono how are u doing now.
Hopefully that scar that wound,
Is less painful now.
Its been 4mths.
Memories still lingers.
I still ask daddy mummy abt u from YZ.
I still praying that one fine day I will get to bump into u once again.
Your notes are still with me.
It wasnt your fault.
Please live well.
Really live it well.
This regret will never be removed out from my life ever again.
You're still e best that i ever had.

2010-02-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

2 weeks left to the last days in my ITE life.
Here comes my TP or SP!!!!
:)
Intensive revision!!!!!!!!!!!!
:'(

Been busy with gf bdae.
A social clubbing.
PH 3rd annii.

Gf celebration was a success.
CONGRATS GF!!!!!!!!!!
And while we are so happy,
She popped BEH, this person.
My heart dropped.
Whole night long,
This person,
Was in my mind.

Your bdae is coming soon.
I bet u will want it simple.
I bet now,
U r busy with ur SIM.
Tell me why,
Why do i still tear when i think of u..
When I will pass by Sembawang.
Why i will bowed down my head,
Why willi rmb u sitting right beside me,
Sembawang have its own blk attractions.
N u r staying at the blue colour windows.

When will i get to cya in any part of spore again?
This regret,
Always stays.
Always n always.
Not on the outside.
But,
Inside.
You are the only one in my regret list that i mentioned.
Till...................
A very very long time.

Perhaps, when tears wont fall when I think of you and what I have done to you.
HAPPY CNY!!
Counting down to your 24th bdae.

2010-01-25T08:21:00.000-08:00

Current me.
Current Dawn.
The one that heart is bruised,
With 1 regret,
With friends that love me as much as I love them.
With bad complicated family background that no one will ever get to experience it.

Always wondered whats life like if I wasnt a player in the past.
Im tired.
Tired that why do I always have to play mind games with guys that are out to play.
Im scare.
Scare that able to plot ple's thinking,
My heart cant be open with the purest heart that it needed to be.

I have cleared life 2 regrets.
Mistakes done during younger days.
3 long years back.
E* & B*
This year...
I finally gotten this chance to sincerely apologised to them for playing them.
Now,
Both have gotten their happiness.
And we are all back as friends again.
I don't have gulit anymore.
Dont have that last sense of heartbreaking.
At least for these 2 guys.

Last year, 181009.
I met a guy.
The guy that I fell in love with w/o realisingly it myself.
I wasnt even his regular cup of tea.
He showered a kind of love that...
Till now..
It still lingered ard.
Cotton on dress at woodlands,
Sorority Rows,
Hello Kitty lipgloss,
Steamboat,
Ajisen,
Our workplace.

Oh god,
Let me bump into him again.
Few years,
It doesnt matter anymore.
Let me...
Make up for this guy.
This regret.
A guy surname of Beh.
A guy thats so charming during work.
A guy that will send me my 15 pcs fried mussels & ordered chilli padi hor fun in advance so that i wont b waiting so long.
A guy that singled for 4 years.
A guy that I broke his heart completely.
A guy that I will never forget.
A guy that I could see future with.
A guy thats...
Gone.

Hidden within me

2010-01-19T23:25:00.000-08:00

Bounded with all my ladies recently.
Gf, is back.
I lost a girl that I naively thought shes that PURE.
I gained 3 new gf that I know they will be in my GF's list from now onwards.
Sch attendance sucks.
FASTER!! MARCH PLEASE FASTER COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just wanna get over and done with it man!!!!!!!
ITE LIFE!!!!
:X

Proudly to say,
I have finally let you go.
With no regrets,
With no hold back.
With no turning back.
Because I have came to an conclusion that,
You're worthless in my eyes,
ALREADY.

To that top listed bitch.
I will nvr even regard you s my acquaintance.
Do u actually find it so pathetic?
To actually BETRAYED your such a close fren,
Who actually stood up for you when your ex bf was being snatched by another girl.
And now, you're doing back to ur close friend whom she told you everything.
I cant bring myself to even acknowlegded you were once my friend.
I never regretted scolded you with that harsh words.
IN ANW, IF U AND THAT BF PLAYER OF YOURS AINT HAPPY,
JUST COME SPORE FIND ME, ALRIGHTS?
Dont get close to my gf, ever again.
The last thing that I done in due to respect my 2 bitches,
Is I never give you few tight slaps.
Seriously.
Just get lost from our sight.
You, shall be the history of ours.

SOon.

2010-01-12T07:22:00.000-08:00

Heard damn pathetic stories abt him.
And I realised, Im lucky.
Recuiting members soon to be membership.
XMM...
You're the next victim.
BEWARE~
SLut, Bitch...
All Im in..
Cos I just knew...
You aint better anyway.
:)

Got to know a new gf.
Shes petite.
Shes frank.
Shes gd.
Shes cute.
I like her very much.
:)

Exams comin soon.
Poly, Im comin soon.
Clubbing off you go for a period of time.
I finally gotten a feel of being single.
Reali single,
after i put in a r/s in FB.
WHOO~
:)

Alot of events coming up.
Tml, heading to JAslin baby 19th bdae,
Steamboat-ing at Novena.
RUnning 3km run.
Studyin soon.
Exam, monday.
Have no time for nonsense.
:)

a new year with a new start

2010-01-05T00:09:00.000-08:00

Right from 23rd to 31st dec,
Busy with TP,
Christmas with Central area friends,
Supperclub,
Destroying ple's hse and play games with all long time friends.

New year a new start.
:)
Im looking forward to my grad day at March.
8more weeks to go in ITE!!!!!!!!!!!
POLY HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to the person who tagged me.
Thanks alrights.
I know im a slut.
SO what comments do u have right now over this?
DONO ANYTHING, PLEASE DONT COMMENT ANYTHING!!
U absolutely have no rights to say I played Desmond.
As for Ivan, right from the start,
Hes already the liar.
If u r a guy, wanna stand up for them,
RMB MY FACE.
COME FIND ME TALK.
Will be waiting.

If u r a player urself.
Buay tahan kena played,
just FCUK off.
Dont come my blog and rant ur vulgarities.
The day i decided to blog again.
I already expected such comments.
The day i started to play,
Such comments are normal to me already.
If you are naive enough to think,
Such comments will beat me down.
You are very wrong~

And, seriously.
Thanks for that compliment, yea?
I STAND STRONGER THAN ANYBODY ELSE AFTER GUYS I PLAYED, GUYS WHO PLAYED ME AND GUYS WHO I EVER LOVED BEFORE.
SO DONT COME HERE AND BLABBER SUCH NONSENSE WHEN U DONO ANYTHING SINGLE THING.
What comes around,
Comes around.
There's always smth called KARMA.

And for the someone who stood me up.
Thank you.
Thank you for standing up for me.
Guess you are someone who know me quite well thou u chose to remain anoynmous.
If possible,
Tell me who are you alrights?
:)
Such nonsense jus let such ple go scold till they are sick n tired of it.
Thank you, once again.

A fruitful sundae. :D

2009-12-20T07:45:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)))))

Circuit driving at 3pm.
Saw Aden in the BBDC instructor car.
7 components, ALL DONE!!!!! :D
Met Aden at Gombak,
Suzuki new bike.
PICK UP - THUMBS UP*

Initially decided to head to East Coast for dinner.
BUT~~~~~~~~~~
RAINED-
So headed to JP's Dian Xiao Er for our dinner and hashima dessert.
DAMN DAMN DAMN FULL~

Saw a heels i love.
Aden bought a pair of ear rings for his bdae girl fren from HEART 2 HEART.
He sent me to ebu hse at Serangoon Nth.
Speeding at 150KM/H.
HOO-

Went to find Kel n family.
While waiting for YZ to come.
FISHES N FISHES~~~
I SERIOUSLY DONO WADS E CRAZE ALL ABT~~~~~~~~~~
:XXXXX

8.15pm.
Met up with YZ.
Went to Bishan.
Didnt get my starbucks coffee but bought some make up at WATSONS.
HEaded to SK, Compass Point for my starbucks.
Stayed up till 10.30pm.
Headed straight home.

9am road practice tml.
10.30am, meeting kel.
He need me to his advisor for his Malaysia trip on e 26th Dec.
Evening, meeting Gf.
She said she wil dote me til SIAOS~~
But definitely meeting CARTOONO~~~~
ZHU TING 23rd BDAE.
Tanjong Pagar, M BAR-
7 months ago....... :O

How hurtful to know that,
Actu e other time patching things up was a PLAN of yours to PLAY me.
Come to think of all things u done, lies u lied earlier on...
And me, stupidly still wanting to FORCE myself to accept everything.
CRIED like a bitch at PH, JUST FOR YOU,
When u r NOWHERE TO BE SEEN AT THAT POINT OF TIME.
CHASED YOU LIKE A MAD WOMAN,
DASHING THRU CROSS JUNCTIONS.
CUTS.
HEARTBREAKS.
TEARS.
AGONY.
Life must b good for you right now.
N i guess, IM AWAKE.
AWAKEN BY THE FACT THAT,
WE ARE THROUGH.
Finally this day arrived.
Upon knowing what you told my gf ytd at DBL'O.
I thought i will stil felt smth.
But...
I didnt anymore.
Now.
I pieced every bits and pieces up then i realised....
Whats your plot, your move, your actions....
SALUTE X10*
This love,
Sldnt even had started after I got back to my senses.
Im glad, we didnt went too far that we couldnt make a U-TURN back.
You're a man with homely love,
No doubt.
N that was waht attracted me most.
But...
The thought of you...
Could lied single for 4mths...
When you have 2 ladies by ur side...
Literally 1 of them,
Was the one that I have to face so often...
You could still told me,
IS SMALL FRY~~~~~~~~~
QUIT CLUBBING?~~~~~~~~~ A PILE OF SHIT PLEASE~~~~
U EXACTLY JUST LIED S MUCH S I LIED.
COULD STIL ACTU ASKED ONE OF MY FREN DOWN TO CLUB JUS BCOS WE QUARRELLED.
AND ME,
STUPIDLY BELIEF EVERY WORD.
ENDED UP I WAS THE LAST TO KNOW ALL THESE.
I SLD BE THE ONE ASKING.
WHATS MORE YOU HAVE DONE BHIND MY BACK?!
YOUR PROCLAIMED FAITHFULNESS.
YOUR PROCLAIMED CHANGED MAN.

I TIMER.
I PLAYED.
BUT I KNEW WHERE I STOOD.
JUST 2 WEEKS.
U ACTU.........................
AND WHEN I WAS BACK,
YOU COULD TAKE IT S NOTHING HAPPENED.
TILL I FELL IN,
THEN TRUTH CAME TO LIGHT.
NOW I NO LONGER FEEL A SLIGHT BIT OF SORRY TOWARDS YOU FOR TOYING U.
B4 I LIED.
YOU HAVE ALR TAKEN THIS LOVE FOR NOTHING.
TOWARDS YOU...
IRKS ME.
TOTAL TURNED OFF.
COMPLETELY.
I FEELLLLLLLLLL SO BAD THAT I SCOLDED MY OWN SPECIES FOR YOU.
NO WONDER SHE COULD ACTU SAID,
IF I WANNA BELIEF IN YOU,
THEN IS UP TO ME.
NOWWWWWWWWWW........
I KNOWWWWW WHYYYYYYYY

YOUR FRENS MIGHT BE THINKING IM CHEAP, EASY.
THINK IT BACK.
I NO LONGER FEEL SO.
YOU R JUST PLAIN LUCKY THAT U CAUGHT MY ACTIONS FIRST.
THATS ALL.
AND YOU STILL HAVE THE CHEEK TO SEND ME THAT FUCKING SONG THAT SEEMS TO BE ALL OF MY FAULT.
SO NOBLE OF YOU TO ACTU TELL EVERYBODY I WAS YOUR GREATEST LOVE, YEA?
A PILE OF SHIT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A PLAYER LIKE YOU,
WILL NEVER HAVE FEELINS AND REAL LOVE.
A PLAYER LIKE YOU,
WILL NEVER FIND TRUE LOVE.
THIS IS JUST E BEGINNING OF YOUR KARMA.

IM STILL GLAD I LEARNT THIS LESSON.
THAT LET ME REALLY OPENED MY EYES WIDE TO SEE HOW TERRIBLE GUYS ARE NOWADAYS.
THRU THIS INCIDENT,
I FOUND MY CIRCLE OF TRUEEST FRENS.
I STILL FIND IT SOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID TO ASK MY FRENS DRIVE ME TO UR PLACE AND MSG-ED YOU THOSE MSGES.
U'RE RIGHT MAN.
WE SLD JUST TAKE IT WE NEVERRRRRRR KNOWWWW EACH OTHER B4.

So many r/s.
U're the worst of all.
I didnt believed it.
Till my senses came thru me.
Please get attached soon man.
Im glad.
I didnt let those guy-frens of mine off bcos of you.
B'cos u aint worth me doing so.
For all i might know...
Your ladies empire...
Isnt as little as you described to me, either.
THANK GOD~

After I*L.
I still loves him.
But.
Im as determined s him to forget everything ASAP.
And, I dont wish to be in a R/s.
Shaun.
James.
Kelvin.
Aden.
Edwin.
Ken.
All and all knew my lies.
Im thankful we all are still besties. :D
I dont want to make any decision right now.
I dont want any committment, any status.
I just want my gf, frens, sisters.
Nd a break.
Nd time for myself.

Thats my closure for 2009.
To welcome a new year of 2010....
:P
New hair colour.
My license.
My dearest Niece.
Poly.
Gf, sisters and frens.

What a Sat~

2009-12-19T08:26:00.000-08:00

A Saturday.

Lunch-ing at AMK hub Fish & Co with James.
Then realised his phone's wallpaper is me.
Is sweet, No doubt.
But...
I got this weird feeling thou.
Wonder whether is it too long,
Such thing is happenin to me after I*L.

3.30pm.
Went to take bus to Aunt hse at Serangoon Garden.
Read my suspense storybook throughout the bus journey.
Relatives all are there.
Is warm to know that Im not alone, afterall.
I have cousins who love me, aunts who dote me, uncles who pamer me.
Just kept eating today.
The day of dividing late grandma's wealth.
I miss her, really.

Movie at 7.30pm.
The Bodyguards and Assasins.
OH~~~~~~~~~ MY IDOL~~~ DONNIE YEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Movie with Wilson Tan.
138mins movie.
Supper-ed at Upper Thomson.
Bus back to clementi,
MY DEAR HOME* :)

Struggled with a decision to club anot actually with Sis and Gf at DBL'O.
Eventually,
Still headed home.
Cos' of tml circuit driving.

I feel the sudden pain.
Sudden.
Too abruptly.
I miss you.
IF you are here with me,
Will you be here with me?
I wondered.
Pondered.
How are you?
Where are you?
I*L

Simple day.

2009-12-18T07:45:00.001-08:00

Met up with my darling feli at city hall.
Late for 30mins.
She bought me 6 donuts! ~ ( SWEETS* )
Headed to Marina Square for my Korean Lunch, her Yam paste, our donuts and my teh ice.

Next is her dental clinic at MS.
Gotten her braces colour cahnged due to the upcoming festive season. :)
Jiayi Sis Drove her BMW 3series to meet me and pass me my jacket and collect her $10 from me.

Feli n I headed to PS,
Walked to Heeren and took bus to Bugis.
We strolled ard.
AND SHE STOPPED ME FROM BUYIN A $10 TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Took 960 to causeway point night market.
Had a late dinner.
HOME SWT HOME*

Tml is my family gathering at my uncle's penthouse at Enous.
Before that is James's lunch-ing.
After that will be Wilson's movie.
And then HOME SWT HOME*
Prepare for Sun 3pm last circuit driving b4 wed TP.
6days countdown~

Is nearly a week.
I walked the busiest town.
I never get to see you, anymore.
Tell me,
this isnt the final ending.
Tell me,
Your heart is still beating for me.
Tell me,
My tears still drop for a reason.
Which is you.
I*L.
23days since you left.

Train from gombak to amk, jus hopin to c u. A glimpse.

2009-12-17T11:03:00.000-08:00

What a day!!~~

Met up with daddy at YEW TEE to done up some matters in the bank,
Headed to Xin Wang Cafe and wait for Mummy,
due to her washing machine la~~~ ARGHS*
We 3 had a GREATTTTTT time tgt at Xin Wang.

Headed to Causeway Point to see see look look at mummy's D&D night dress.
Went to METRO and picked a few for Mummy.
Tried and Tried~
FINALLY~~~~
FOUND ONE!!!!
Is indeed v beautiful. :)

Gotten myself a GIANTIC EEYORE from daddy and mummy for christmas present.
Dad n Mum actu had signed on it as an memento. :D
LOVES LOVES LOVES~
Headed to MRT station at 4.30pm.
Having circuit driving at 5pm.
The last 4th lesson b4 23rd Dec.

Circuit.
Everything went fine,
BUTTTTTTTT
Turning just sucks!!
:(
BAD BAD BAD~

Headed to ebu hse at serangoon north.
Met up with kelvin for western dinner and my hashima dessert.
Purposely took train down,
thought I got the right timing,
hopefully can get the chance to catch a glimpse of you in train.
It was only 6.30pm.
Couldnt spot you.
Msg-ed you,
No reply.

Illegal driving from serangoon to woodlands to practise turning.
ESP RIGHT BEND turning.
At least I got the grip of it now.
:X
Took train home with my EEYORE from Woodlands.
Reached home b4 curfew time - 11.30pm. :)
Chatted with Gf on the phone.
Msn-ing, open bill - ** SHOCKED **
3am , Korean MASK.

Tml will be meeting my felicia baby at City Hall,
Acc her to her dental appt cos of her BRACES.
After 6pm,
Vivo Club Marc....
My JACKET!!!!!
WOOHOO~
DINNER~~~
Home swt home~ :D

Just realised.
I still love you so much.
Still worried.
Still cried.
Still longed.
Still miss.
Is still you.
I*L

Back to blog. The 21 days since you left from 26.11.09

2009-12-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

Im back to blog since 4mths back.
I have finally put aside the happy, painful, tearful memories of the double D's which I clinged on for a very long time.
Which I'm happy, I have done it.
Away with one, came another one.
A special one, indeed.

Cant be possibly flooding all GFs of mine with continuously with this guy who stolen my heart, up till now.
So im back to blog all feelings for this particular guy and is gonna be deeper compared to the Double D's.
Every trace of my feelings n love, hopefully, will end as the time frame I set for myself thou I knew he will never be back, no matter what Im going to do.

For this healing period, I'm going to name it as The Regrets ; I&D
Literally, this love wasnt even suppose to start.
But still, it started just like a spark in a club on a Fri night.
When I had given it my all, When i could just give up all, he failed to see it.
When I have to cry and asked, in what ways didnt I done enough towards him or this love.
When I have to hold back all tears for all wrongs he done, and left eventually.
It just wasnt suppose to happen like this.
Gullible me, believed every word you said.

I gave up.
U came back, asking for another chance.
N while the period b4 you were back,
When I was still healing myself, blaming myself for nt doing enough.
Theres this ideal man came abt.
In btw you n him, I hold on.
Hold on till a point of time,
I had alr forgotten who am I timer-ing.
Till the very last scenario of a opera drama...
Everything was exposed.
I lost it all, in a night.
It was then, I realised, who i reali love.
But everything was too late to amend all scars I inflicted to U, Him and myself.

Memories came flooding by.
My lies, my selfishness indulged me into making such mistake in losing you.
After all and all that ever happened,
I knew wheres my mistake.
I Wasnt so determined b4 that I wanna change, at least this is for you.
I plucked up the very first courage to send you a regard msg at the wee hours.
The next day, 071209
Happy 3rd month.
We msg-ed.
The feeling was so close yet so far.

The next day,
Misses was so so so overwhleming that I msg-ed you.
I walked back the route towards your hse.
2 weeks since I ever walked.
I sat at the place when we both could chat till 2am plus.
U came down.
I saw you.
The charismatic you when I spotted you in REBEL.
We talked it thru, cleared it all.
It seems like a breakthrough for me that at least, in future I wont be facing down on e ground if i were to bump to u in streets.

Player played player.
Thats e definition, isnt it?
It blurs me that your heart is open to forgive and nt revenge.
Again, is you who sent me home.
1st time, your tears dropped.
It flowed down to ur cheeks.
It breaks my heart.

Last wed.
With so much facts thgat i couldnt accept,
I done smth which is way out from myself.
I lost myself.
I became so irrational.
I lost you, again.

Sat afternoon,
I done it all i could.
My heart longs for another chance that despite with asthma relaspe,
I still chased you all the way from Outram to Chinatown point.
Never once i let my heart out like this and dashed across roads.
Finally you spoken.
U said you will give me this chance and you to forget this incident.
An incident that I lost myself irrationally, which u failed to take it into consideration.
Your back, still against me.

So much so much you have said.
SO much so much I have asked you back.
Your stand is firm.
And, my stand is firm too.
Is my heart that I have to account to.
You have forced your heart to forget all we had gone thru.
3rd mth present is still with me.
I will keep doin till my heart left.
You must have a gd time with all ladies you have now.

I learnt to love my lover.
And not seperate a lover n a provider.
I leanrt to be truthful till e very end and nt lied.
I learnt that...
I still loves you despite all that had happened.
SOmetime it takes more courage to let go than to hold on.
Is just a 2mth++ relationship.
But im giving myself 6mths.

You will get attached soon tgt with your gf to celebrate Christmas.
Whenever I hear news about you,
My heart still aches.
Very badly.
YCK, NYP, AMK...
How to forget?
If your love can be so eaisly transferred to another girl in such a short time,
What more can I do other than ranting all emotions here?

You're still the greatest love that I ever met after DOuble D's.
Wont delete the videos I recorded.
Wont delete pics we took tgt.
WILL NEVER TAKE YOU OUT OF MY HEART.
Still misses you.
Very deeply.
I LOVE YOU.

2009-08-14T12:16:00.000-07:00

NO LONGER BLOGGING.