Exams are just within these 4 days. And Im done with my ITE life. ;) Nothing great happened recently. This sat, is a special occasion. I wondered. How are you celebrating it. I guess hatred still stays. Take care of urself.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Long long time ago. 3 years ago. I got to know a guy with sucha tall height that stunned me. He long ago had heard my name. Very 1st time seeing him is... AMK K-BOX. 1st time nightlife, Was Zouk. When he stupidly mistaken my tattoo as DAMN. He always said, I showed him a different side of demure ladies. I will always pull his collar whenever he says he wanna go grind other girls. I will always create trouble for him to clear up in Phuture. This guy. Hold me on for 2years. This guy always rmb the msg that i sent him when hes in malaysia with his friends. The msg that says, Dont eat too much seafood cos weather is bad in Malaysia. The guy that ever edited a pic of ours by putting a lightning sign due to my voice and set it as his wallpaper in his N70. This was the guy that gave me 2 years of his prime time to love me silently inexchange for 2 weeks time being tgt with me. He left me twice. Always appeared whenever I was feelin lost and empty. 2nd time he came back... When i was at Kovan Hk cafe. And i received his msg and hes at DragonFly. We said that... Nobody is supposed to leave each other alone. This guy was e only guy that bicker with me like nobody business. That was e guy that heard me cryin over that phone when I got caught for playin 181009 and IL. That was e guy who picked me up when i was dyin soon. This guy brought me Perlini silver dolphin necklace and asked me to b his gf on the eve of 09'CNY. The guy that tgt with me ever encountered ghost experience at E2MAX. The guy that told me hes super fetish towards girls who wear BEBE and MNG top. The guy that I sang while hes on e phone. The guy that ple always sees us s couples. The guy that gave me memorable christmas eve, christmas and new year countdown. The guy that I will go down PH with shorts and slippers just to catch a glimpse of him. The guy that needs my consistent grumble regardin his diet. The guy that I will always msg whenever i passed by Paya Lebar. The guy that stayed so close so close to my heart. The guy that have memories of EASY, LAST NIGHT and WOMANISER. The guy that i used nothing but the most genuine heart ever. The guy that sit ambulance with me 1st and last time. The guy that drank 5 sec martell as a result of my brave front. The guy that loves PEDRO this brand. The guy that bought DOMANCHI button shirts jus cos i say the shop clothing for guys r nice. The guy that I will never ever forget. The guy of name, Elson Toh WeiXiang. The guy that left me 3rd time and I believed is the very last time already. The guy that said he wants to move on. This is e guy that i will always keep in my heart. Always and always.
181009. 2 more weeks to your 24th bday. I saw the tag u left. I have nvr ask u for forgiveness. I jus hope somehow i could do smth for u behind the screen. I dono how are u doing now. Hopefully that scar that wound, Is less painful now. Its been 4mths. Memories still lingers. I still ask daddy mummy abt u from YZ. I still praying that one fine day I will get to bump into u once again. Your notes are still with me. It wasnt your fault. Please live well. Really live it well. This regret will never be removed out from my life ever again. You're still e best that i ever had.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
2 weeks left to the last days in my ITE life. Here comes my TP or SP!!!! :) Intensive revision!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(
Been busy with gf bdae. A social clubbing. PH 3rd annii.
Gf celebration was a success. CONGRATS GF!!!!!!!!!! And while we are so happy, She popped BEH, this person. My heart dropped. Whole night long, This person, Was in my mind.
Your bdae is coming soon. I bet u will want it simple. I bet now, U r busy with ur SIM. Tell me why, Why do i still tear when i think of u.. When I will pass by Sembawang. Why i will bowed down my head, Why willi rmb u sitting right beside me, Sembawang have its own blk attractions. N u r staying at the blue colour windows.
When will i get to cya in any part of spore again? This regret, Always stays. Always n always. Not on the outside. But, Inside. You are the only one in my regret list that i mentioned. Till................... A very very long time.
Perhaps, when tears wont fall when I think of you and what I have done to you. HAPPY CNY!! Counting down to your 24th bdae.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Current me. Current Dawn. The one that heart is bruised, With 1 regret, With friends that love me as much as I love them. With bad complicated family background that no one will ever get to experience it.
Always wondered whats life like if I wasnt a player in the past. Im tired. Tired that why do I always have to play mind games with guys that are out to play. Im scare. Scare that able to plot ple's thinking, My heart cant be open with the purest heart that it needed to be.
I have cleared life 2 regrets. Mistakes done during younger days. 3 long years back. E* & B* This year... I finally gotten this chance to sincerely apologised to them for playing them. Now, Both have gotten their happiness. And we are all back as friends again. I don't have gulit anymore. Dont have that last sense of heartbreaking. At least for these 2 guys.
Last year, 181009. I met a guy. The guy that I fell in love with w/o realisingly it myself. I wasnt even his regular cup of tea. He showered a kind of love that... Till now.. It still lingered ard. Cotton on dress at woodlands, Sorority Rows, Hello Kitty lipgloss, Steamboat, Ajisen, Our workplace.
Oh god, Let me bump into him again. Few years, It doesnt matter anymore. Let me... Make up for this guy. This regret. A guy surname of Beh. A guy thats so charming during work. A guy that will send me my 15 pcs fried mussels & ordered chilli padi hor fun in advance so that i wont b waiting so long. A guy that singled for 4 years. A guy that I broke his heart completely. A guy that I will never forget. A guy that I could see future with. A guy thats... Gone.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Bounded with all my ladies recently. Gf, is back. I lost a girl that I naively thought shes that PURE. I gained 3 new gf that I know they will be in my GF's list from now onwards. Sch attendance sucks. FASTER!! MARCH PLEASE FASTER COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just wanna get over and done with it man!!!!!!! ITE LIFE!!!! :X
Proudly to say, I have finally let you go. With no regrets, With no hold back. With no turning back. Because I have came to an conclusion that, You're worthless in my eyes, ALREADY.
To that top listed bitch. I will nvr even regard you s my acquaintance. Do u actually find it so pathetic? To actually BETRAYED your such a close fren, Who actually stood up for you when your ex bf was being snatched by another girl. And now, you're doing back to ur close friend whom she told you everything. I cant bring myself to even acknowlegded you were once my friend. I never regretted scolded you with that harsh words. IN ANW, IF U AND THAT BF PLAYER OF YOURS AINT HAPPY, JUST COME SPORE FIND ME, ALRIGHTS? Dont get close to my gf, ever again. The last thing that I done in due to respect my 2 bitches, Is I never give you few tight slaps. Seriously. Just get lost from our sight. You, shall be the history of ours.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Heard damn pathetic stories abt him. And I realised, Im lucky. Recuiting members soon to be membership. XMM... You're the next victim. BEWARE~ SLut, Bitch... All Im in.. Cos I just knew... You aint better anyway. :)
Got to know a new gf. Shes petite. Shes frank. Shes gd. Shes cute. I like her very much. :)
Exams comin soon. Poly, Im comin soon. Clubbing off you go for a period of time. I finally gotten a feel of being single. Reali single, after i put in a r/s in FB. WHOO~ :)
Alot of events coming up. Tml, heading to JAslin baby 19th bdae, Steamboat-ing at Novena. RUnning 3km run. Studyin soon. Exam, monday. Have no time for nonsense. :)
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