Monday, January 25, 2010
Current me.
Current Dawn.
The one that heart is bruised,
With 1 regret,
With friends that love me as much as I love them.
With bad complicated family background that no one will ever get to experience it.
Always wondered whats life like if I wasnt a player in the past.
Im tired.
Tired that why do I always have to play mind games with guys that are out to play.
Im scare.
Scare that able to plot ple's thinking,
My heart cant be open with the purest heart that it needed to be.
I have cleared life 2 regrets.
Mistakes done during younger days.
3 long years back.
E* & B*
This year...
I finally gotten this chance to sincerely apologised to them for playing them.
Now,
Both have gotten their happiness.
And we are all back as friends again.
I don't have gulit anymore.
Dont have that last sense of heartbreaking.
At least for these 2 guys.
Last year, 181009.
I met a guy.
The guy that I fell in love with w/o realisingly it myself.
I wasnt even his regular cup of tea.
He showered a kind of love that...
Till now..
It still lingered ard.
Cotton on dress at woodlands,
Sorority Rows,
Hello Kitty lipgloss,
Steamboat,
Ajisen,
Our workplace.
Oh god,
Let me bump into him again.
Few years,
It doesnt matter anymore.
Let me...
Make up for this guy.
This regret.
A guy surname of Beh.
A guy thats so charming during work.
A guy that will send me my 15 pcs fried mussels & ordered chilli padi hor fun in advance so that i wont b waiting so long.
A guy that singled for 4 years.
A guy that I broke his heart completely.
A guy that I will never forget.
A guy that I could see future with.
A guy thats...
Gone.
